Camera Pika Pika by Me, Jy, Ian, and Ben a.k.a the Bombastic 4

and special thanks to Deborah for lending her DSLR

What does the word L.O.V.E stands for?? It stands for Legs Open Very Enjoy... Then, how about the words MAKE L.O.V.E?? It stands for Make Legs Open Very Enjoy...

(Ben & Wee,2010)

Wednesday-Mar 31 2010

Today we get the pay for helping our tutor. I had a sore throat but still i ate fried chicken and ice cream.woots~ now my throats feel miserable.haiz~ Its raining cats and dogs after our class but we still cycled home. Its really fun. We straight away coma when we reached home. I feels hungry now. I am going out for supper later.Good night.z.z.Z

Wednesday-Mar 31 2010

I woke up at 7.30pm today. I am "coma-ing" for 17 hours. It is because I didn't sleep on the day before. I was rushing for my assignment and presentations. It was really one of the most exhausting day in my life. I almost fainted on that day. Besides that, I am quite emo for the past few days. Everything seems running out of my hand and we are racing against time. At some point, I was thinking of giving up. When I felt so down and exhausted, luckily I had a person to hang on to. We chat for the whole night while I doing my assignment. Chatting with her makes me feel comfortable and energetic. As thou, she was a force pushing me forward. I also went out to see her that night. After chatted with her and taken some fresh air, I went home to continue with my assignments. I guess thats all about my miserable night-mare...Today, me and my friends went to take some magnificent pictures at Beijing. It's really fun even though the surroundings is quite dark. We also experienced few "flash bangs" from one of our friend. It is quite an adventurous and fun experience. Mixing around with them really made my day perfect. Good night.z.z.Z

Tuesday- Mar 23 2010

I accidentally read your blog just now. I can't explain why i did it. Maybe i still care about you. When I go through it, i am stunned and speechless. You are saying that you feels so sad and discourage. I am not sure how it happens. No matter what is the reason that causing all this mess, i wanted to apologize from you. I know that every word that i said to you now is useless but i insist to say SORRY. Even though i can't help much in your current situation, i will pray for GOD to bless you with strength and courage so that you can return to the happy-go-lucky girl that i knew. I wanted to see a true smile born from the heart of yours again. No matter what, don't ever feels sad again because i will keep all your past misery and sadness with me. It's the least that i can do to for the person i loved. Good night.z.z.Z

Saturday- Mar 21 2010

It's been a while since I last updated this blog. A lot of things had happened in this period of time. Today is the 294th days we knew each other. The time passes so fast that it was almost been a year we became friends. But, things is not the same anymore. Even though, it appears that nothing changed much but actually there is a barrier dividing the both of us. Even though, our relationship seems back to normal but there is something missing. As thou there is a hole inside my heart. I felt emptiness. I am back to my cold and lonely world. When you told me that it was better for us to remain as friend, I felt sad even though I had knew the answer from the beginning. I can't explain why. Maybe I still can't let go of my feelings towards you. Maybe I still love you. Or maybe I am still hoping that you will accept me one day. I am really confused. I had mix feelings. I am totally lost. My heads going to explode and my hearts going to crush into smitherines soon. Therefore, I started to play computer games to forget about this misery. Hence, I am addicted to computer games. As if the life is meaningless. I am running away from reality. I know this is an act of a coward but what can I do? If I am sitting on my bed alone and without doing anything, I will started to think of you and i will ends up feeling sad and sometimes even wanted to cry. Sometimes, I wanted to cry so much so that I can release my emotions. But, there is a time when I felt glad, that was the time when you told me about your feelings. At least i knew how you felt. But, there are few things that you told me seems different from what i heard. I don't know whether to trust whom? In the end, I had chosen to believe you. It is because you are really important for me. But, the more i love you the more i get hurt. I am really down and sad today. Although, I smiled towards you, actually my heart was bleeding. It's hard for me being incongruence. When I took my bath, tears falling from my cheeks. I can't hold on anymore. Now, I am keeping myself busy with studies to avoid from thinking of these feelings. I have to repress these emotions for the mean time.That is the best solution for NOW. Good night.z.z.Z