Sunday- May 9 2010

Finally, I realize,

That I am nothing without you,

I was so wrong,

Forgive me,

My broken heart like a wave,

My shaken heart like a wind,

My heart vanished like smoke,

It can’t be remove like a tattoo,

I sigh deeply as if a ground is going to cave in,

Only dust are piled up in my mind,

I thought I wouldn’t be able to live even one day without you,

But, somehow I manage to live on longer than I thought,

You don’t answer anything as I cry out “I miss you”,

I hope for a vain expectation but now it’s useless,

What is it about that person next to you, did he make you cry?

Dear, can you even see me, did you forget completely?

I am worried; I feel anxiety because I can’t get close nor try to talk to you,

I spend long nights by myself, erasing my thoughts a thousand times,

Don’t look back and leave,

Don’t find me again and live on,

Because I have no regrets from loving you,

Take only the good memories,

I can bear it in some way,

I can stand in some way,

You should be happy if you are like this,

Day by day I become dull,

Oh girl, I cry,

You are my all, say goodbye,

If we pass by each other on the street,

Act like you didn’t see me and go the way you were walking to,

If you keep thinking about our past memories,

I might go look for you secretly,

Always be happy with him, so I won’t ever get a different mind,

Even smallest regret won’t be left out ever,

Please live well as if I should feel jealous,

You should always be like that bright sky, like that white cloud,

Yes, you should always smile like that as if nothing happened,

I hope your heart feels relieved after living me,

Those tears will dry completely as time passes by,

It would’ve hurt less if we didn’t meet at all,

Hope you will bury our promise of being together forever,

Oh my love, you are my heart, say goodbye.

Finally, the long awaited time has come. The battle was over. Everything seems back to normal again, after few weeks of chaos cause by the exam. Everybody looks burn out while saying good bye to our final exams, so do I. After the exam, we went to KFC. It’s been a while since I went there. The mouth watering aroma of the fried chicken opens up my appetite. Later we all went to FECCA and unexpectedly, Deborah and her gang shows up. We were stuck there while waiting for the rain to stop. Hence, I missed the barbeque party organized by our development trend tutorial group. But, few hours later, it was still raining cats and dogs. So, we decided to walk to LFK for dinner. An hour later, as calculated by Ben the rain stops. We heads home for a bath and later meets up at Adrian’s place. We played with his sugar glider, chit chatting and drink a bottle of vodka, where my cheek was blushing. Later at midnight, we went to FECCA for the second time of the day and that’s how the day ends. Well, I woke up at 4pm today because we are going to play badminton at 4.30. Later we went for steamboat. It was the first time that Tze Wei was joining us for dinner. Everyone make fun of her and we all laughed together. The atmosphere was so nice. It looks like a family gathering, where all of us sitting around a table and enjoying our delicious meal with a big smile on the face of everybody. After filling our empty stomach with a “horse”, we went to FECCA. Well, something happened to both my friend. I don’t know much how it happened but I hope that our friendship will never be affected by the incident. Friendship is much more precious than any other things in this world.

A friendship might be fragile but a true friendship will never break off. (Wee, 2010)