Today is New Year’s Eve. I still miss ‘her’. I wanted to know how ‘she’ feels about me. So, I am going to find it out through my friend. I asked her whether she know what is going on between me and ‘her’. She knows about it and told me everything that ‘she’ told her. When she told me about it, I had mixed feelings. At the beginning, I felt really sad and disappointed because ‘she’ said that both of us do not suit each other because of our characteristics and mindsets. ‘She’ is the type of materialistic girl while I am not. I said that I can change myself for ‘her’. I can become a materialistic person if I want to be. I think that if I am not a simple minded guy instead a materialistic guy, everything will be different. She told me that mindset is the hardest thing to change and want me to be authentic. In addition, she said ‘loving a person is giving as much freedom as we can’. After listening to these words, I realized that I should give ‘her’ and myself more freedom. Maybe one day ‘she’ will change. Or maybe I will change. At that time, characteristics or mindsets won’t be a barrier between our relationships. I will wait until that day to come. But, in the mean time I will act as thou nothing had happened and went back to our past relationship. I felt happy and relieved to know about ‘her’ thoughts. I wanted to thank my friend from the bottom of my heart for sharing it with me. I learned a lot of things today. First, you won’t get everything you wish for including love. Even, Santa Claus only appears during Christmas. Second, difference in characteristics is an issue in a relationship. I always thought that loving someone includes accepting the person’s weaknesses and characteristics. But, I am wrong. We can see all those things in a romance TV series or movies but not in a real life. Third, loving someone doesn’t mean that we must own her instead we should give and wishes her happiness. A lot of things had happened this year and it includes good and bad things. One of the good things ever happened to me is getting to know ‘her’ and become friends. Besides that, I get to know a group of nice friends that will stand beside me whenever I am happy or sad. Nonetheless, there are also a lot of sad things happened to me. I don’t want to think about it anymore and let it blown away like the wind. It’s been an exciting and interesting year. Good bye and thank you 2009. Good nite.z.zZ
